/dɪsˈdeɪn, dɪˈsteɪn/
verb (used with object)
1. to look upon or treat with contempt; despise; scorn.
2. to think unworthy of notice, response, etc.; consider beneath oneself: to disdain replying to an insult.
3. (noun) a feeling of contempt for anything regarded as unworthy; haughty contempt; scorn.
Origin:
1300–50; (v.) Middle English disdainen < Anglo-French de ( s ) deigner (see dis-1 , deign); (noun) Middle English disdeyn < Anglo-French desdai ( g ) n, derivative of the verb
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Came back from the city tonight, and the rain was weapons-grade almost tropical in nature i.e. heavy and unrelenting. As I was driving, there were several instances where the lightning was bright enough to temporarily light everything up (including my retinas) as if it were daytime. But apart from one instance where I slightly skidded because of the surface run-off blanketing the asphalt, my mind was wandering off to replay the highlights of the day.
Had a few questions bouncing in my head such as ‘are people really revolted at the thought of being associated with academic lightweights?’ ‘What if I make someone who breezes through academia feel uncomfortable trying to empathise with someone who’s barely scraping by?’ ‘Are my results an honest reflection of the faith I cling to?’ ‘What if this becomes a stumbling block to someone else?’ ‘Why is it that my conscience is constantly burdened with doing my best while the reality is I fail to carry it through?’ ‘Why is everything so hard?’
I’m not a model H1 student. In fact, I’m very far from it. Yet I suppose in some circles that can be classified as a form of intellectual retardation.
